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2008-08-28T21:40:00.002+08:00

ok, i really did not know what had gotten over me.
i was so emotional and suspected...
i really had a strong feeling about it, so i checked.
familar words starred into my face.
i almost broke down and tear.
i stayed strong, i tried not to believe wad i saw.
but, more clues confirmed that itwas true.
however, it was know that i had accused wrongly,
i had not trusted.
upon hearing so, i broke down again.
now in reverse i was suspected.
i start to suspect if i m seeing thing...
maybe i sccused wrongly,
or maybe she was just lying.
i don't know, but i do know that i m just in the mood of being confused.
i didt expect anything like that to happen.
to me it is being stubbo that had got over her .
i really dun know.
i really dun know.
i mean in my point of view it really seemed like it had happened.
but, from the other party, it is just a form of accusation.
i really dun know.
but, i really tried to lie low, and not breath a word out.
but whenever it came to me,
my blood boiled.
i just want to avoid the whole thing.
now, i know that inside me has a mixture of hurt, misery and confusion.

2008-08-19T20:28:00.002+08:00

it had been such a long time since i had posted. i had even forgotten how to post. but this few months had been a tiring and tedious one. many things had happenened and some were really good, some were just freaking bad. jus in this month, i failed two common test, both are on the language section. is it depressing? it was the first time i failed that subject. it hurts my heart a lot u know? and for the another test, i expected a least a pass, but i failed.. that feeling was so unbearable that i just broke down. i really didint expect anything stated above to happen. then today, there is this maths common test, i practically just screwed the whole papaer up. now there wasnt any motivation left for me to study harder. i kept on asking myself if i was really slacking and was i really being too complacent. there was no answers. i really think i slack a lot alot this semester. i m so scared. i m some one so easily influenced. my parents were atarting to see this change in me, there were holding me on more tighter than ever. they would not want to let it go. they are afraid i would br led astray. even i myself suspect my own strong beliefs and character. i dont know. i feel so emotional. i feel like it is the end of the world. but i really dun want this kind of feeling. does anyone knows how am i feeling. om gosh, i feel so much better after typing. but i would really hope some one is really there to support me when i m really frail and weak. i want to do it. i want to excel, but everythingseems to be going down hill. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! it was not planned like that.
depressed...
emoing...

2008-06-05T22:33:00.002+08:00

hello!
yesterday was fine. my parents came back and i miss them dearly.
i made them a banner and had welcome wishes for them.
they all looked very tired and we did not really talked much.
i wasnt in the mood to talk too.
my sisters enjoyed themselves very much.
once they came home, they were excitedly telling me their expediture in australia.
they were also proudly showing off what they experienced in the country.
they showed me the photos and i was so jealous.
i mean, i was told to stay at home and not allowed to go out.
i had only 4 faces of wall to face and a maid.
i spend my time with the computer and the tv.
it wasnt really that great.
they were able to see the world and experience the difference.
i started to think that it was unfair.
i know tat they triend to make it up for me by buying me presents although the exchange rate was high.
they bought me chocolates, noughart, bags and shirts.
maybe i should be happy,
i should be appreciative,
i should be thankful,
i should be glad.
well,
maybe that takes time.

today was very relaxing.
i did a little work.
i think that it was time for me to seriously start doing my homework.
revisions,
tuition homeworks,
and also take this holiday to change my life.
i think it is high time to make it exciting and colourful.
SHOULD I?

2008-06-01T14:10:00.003+08:00

hello people! omg la! it has been a sooooooooooo long time since i posted! wth!
it is always the same old excuse la. too busy ver busy. just too busy...
many things had obviously happened.
just like the MYE. sec 2 camp and now the holidays.
waaaahhhh! it is really a long time.

on a brighter note, time had passed very fast and i did not realise that it is JUNE!
nayway today is the 1st of june.

actuallu in MArch nothinh much had happened. (it rhymes)
not that i can remember.
OH! I GOT ONE! it was the march holidays.
man! my memory is failing. *sigh*
it was just a very short one. no wonder it was so insignificant to me.

in april i had my NAPHA!
IT WAS ACTUALLY OK LA.
i was very pleased with myself.
i managed to run in a time of 15 minute +++ .
maybe i was too excited to run with my track shoes.
it was satisfying.
the 5 station was bad. i did not flung any.
but it was not too good.

in the beginning of MAY,
i kind of made new friends i guess.
lizzie, felicia and cherish.
i guess i m starting to be quite random.
i was still in touch with the rest.
then in the middle i was having the MYE!
it was terrible, horrible, vegetable.
the paper was so damn hard la.
before that i was chionging like some mad woman.
the results wasnt really dissapointing but average results.

i did not meet my dad requirement.
he wanted me to get an average of 70%.
but i got 65%.
so i wasnt able to go on a holiday with them.
i thought my dad wasn't reaaly serious about it.
anyway, i was mentally prepared.
i wasn't that devastated.
however, when the days of them going on the holiday started to approach i felt the pain.
my mum , sis and dad constantly discussing on the holiday itinery.
i felt left out.
i knew my mum seriously wanted me to go, she had begged my dad alot.
all the more, i felt that i have let her down.
upon pondering on these, i was shedding tears every now and then.
my dad knew it all.
he explained that his motive of this plan was to make feel that only if i put in enough effort, then i will get my desired results. he do not want me to get whatever i want the easy way. i cant afford to be complacent.

so here i am, staying at home with my maid.
i had thought over what my parent say.
after all, they really mean well.
the feeling of being left out was bad.
but it is all going to over in a few days time.
i knew i could do this.
during this period of time, many people had been there to encourage me.
thank u guys a million and one times.
thankyou: aunty, uncle, grandma, lizzie, mu shuen, amelia, mum, dad.

i really could feel the love.

i guess love is on the air, water and in me!

2008-03-13T09:20:00.002+08:00

omg! people are complaining.

anyway on monday i went to scdf and is like so cool can.

beautiful memories there.

met****people.

and i m going crazy because of it.

oh yeah.

my progress report card---> 66%

is that a good or a bad?

i guess bad lah.

so lan rite?

failed english by 1 mark.

so parents dam disapointed can?

they ignored me for days. till ow still ignore me. i left 1 more homework and i m done.

hate holiday because have to get back progress report and holiday homework.

really hate it!

going to start school in like another 3 days!

it is like going to be another new term and it is choing time!

chiong arh!

really stress...

hopr that mas selamat will be caught soon!

2008-02-27T20:28:00.002+08:00

harlo. i know i did not post for really long. but it is not my fault. it is smss fault cause they dumped me with lotsa work. practically dumped onto me la. i kow my blog got some prob. like always hang right? so those who are able to come in are lucky la. congrats. oh u want to know how much i fair for test? i pass english. it is like a miracle. c5 u know? but i know it is still really low. maths A1. chinese A1. literature B3. science c5. this one i really sad about it la. cause at first i got 80. then after that become fail (30) so overall 55 lor. waiting for my IH. quite scared. waiting for my home econs too. i think i should beable to do well la. cause is sec 1 works. and i already gone through. but worrying my maths. cause it is really difficult. really difficult. lit test coming up soon. aqnd i m like the 2nd in class for lit. happy, but i think i can do better. for those in kcpss i missing u guys many many. i bought denise a present. her birthday coming soon. luckily her birthday is on 1st march if 1 day later then become leap year sai. i know i m talking crap, but yah u dun have to give out cold sweat. i m going back to kcpss next thursday. i m counting down sia! so cya guys there!

2008-02-08T13:12:00.000+08:00

yo! i m in my cousin's house now. waiting for the food to come. so that i can eat. but anyway, i m not really hungry. cause i m stuffed with chinese new year goodies. yea... i mean the food just came. so means, i m going down. yesterday my luck for gambling was ok ok la. no win no lose. sian. later have another session of gambling, so see ya guys. i hate ppl who are show off! happy chinese new year once again!

2008-02-07T11:58:00.000+08:00

hello! urm let me see, today is chinese new year rite? yea. anyway, i want to just wish everybody a happy happy new year! cause i dun feel really happy today. cause some ppl poure cold water onto me lor. i mean they like spoil my mood la. saddist. sigh. anyway, priyanka say i must add her in my post so i mentioned her name! haha! yea! to priyanka: i did it! haaha! i know i m lame. i m in my uncle's house, and very bored so post lor. yesterday luck was on me, i earn quite a lot. see today the fortune got shine on me or not in blackjack. hahaa! those who are married, u owe me an ang bao!

2008-02-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

hello! tomorrow have project work! yeah! bored! bb!

2008-02-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

begged by popular demand, ann cher shall post her blog. JKJK! but i shall still post. many things happened this week.

monday veno did not come cause she hated her tamil teacher to the core and she is feeling really upset and miserable, she did not like the life in smss cause she was so attached to kcpss, however, as a nice fren to her, i told our school councillor. she was sad that she was feeling this way and would try to do anything to help veno. she onli like school because of netball. and nothing else. mayb sometimes the horoscope is true, they said that veno would be struggling with the new environment and will onli get used to it at the later part. she had tottally lost all her self confisence, determinstion and perservearance and i m really upset. i did not expect things to happen. everything had changed tremendously in within her. i m really afraid she would transfer out. if so, i really do not know wad to do. she is not the veno i used to know.

then, zi ning and mun shuen fought, they were arguing and said that they hated each other. i was feeling terrible. i got my test results maths: 19/25 english: 14/25 chinese: 39/50. i m happy with all except english. i had to attend remedial on every monday. sigh. but nvm, all my frens are joining, we share our sadness and happiness together. i just hope they will not change the image of me, instead like me. yeah!

mrs roas was a bad teacher, she did not teach us 3 chapters in our macbeth but luckily i had a tuition teacher so... NO WORRIES! and jasmine is gonna join me in chinese tuition with madame her, i just love madame her! haha. oh yah, my tagboard like have problem leh, need to go and check. oh ya, yesterday was nadine's birhtday but i forgor to wish her a happy birthday. soory... hope she will c my post.

amelia said she did not felt good when i was not around and she was a loner and i feel guilty. oh ya, yesterday i had npcc and u know wad? they thought i was sec 1 and i was suppose to learn sa-dia and sa-nang-diri(dun noe how to spell) so i was down there LOLing la! and my laptop was spoilt cause i did not on the wireless button, stupid right! anyway i have got nothing to poat liao. cya! i mean if i dun post till next week, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2008-01-27T14:15:00.000+08:00

hello! how's my new blogskin? nice arh? haha! yeah, ok, i mean, the day before, my school's water pipe burst. so, i think u all know this story already right, some ppl posted earlier than me hor? ha! so we can go back to school early, then mun shuen aka jasmine, zi ning aka ning, junn theng came to jasmine and my house. we ate mun shuen's "special porridge" then after that play with her lil bor. zi ning love him very much and the brother was bulling junn theng and she was like so freak out la. she screamed like crazy woman and also jasmine was like crazy woman too la. she shouted "i kill u arh, i kill u arh!" to her bro lor. crazy woman right? haha! then came my house to use com and "do homework" zi ning left first, then junn theng. this is not the ending, me and jasmine went to study room and then we use free assess of internet. i did not do much work but enjoy ourselves la. DUH! just now went to some ppl house then after that eat la, go ppl house sure eat wan rite? haha. now i m in the study room again, and and and... i m the onli gurl. there are two 'quite' handsome guys at the opposite table. anyway that is not the point. THE POINT IS, JASMINE WEE MUN SHUEN IS STILL NOT HERE, WHEN WE PLANNED TO MEET AT 230! sigh. i mean she told me already that she will be late, so it is forgivable. i was here since, (let me count) 1 hour +++ liao. ok, jasmine if u read this, forgive me for putting ur name so big. haha! still waiting for jasmine... come faster la u!

2008-01-18T20:22:00.000+08:00

hello! i think i shall only post every week. i was quite stess in the beggining of the week. cause of the cca, ppl have been telling me that npcc sucks. but in the end was ok la, the ppl are so damn nice can? and we did the chicken dance thingy and then we bond our relationship with each other and we had many many fun. i guess our class rocks the school most lor. this sunday, we are going to the aids exhibition, and the 'siao ding dong' have been pestering to buy her presents for her birthday when her birthday is like 10th december. but as a swimmer companion in the past, my classmate, mt neighbour, my mum's fren, and also my soon-to-be close fren, i will give it to her early. i have been keeping in touch with my kcp classmates, OPPS! i mean classmate (amelia) . so i roughly know what happens in kcp. okie, i m so tired liao, sayonara!

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2008-01-12T11:01:00.000+08:00

hello!

this week rocks,

but damn many homework lor,

but i kind of feel guilty to someone.

but nvm, no need to be close fren,

but i m sure can be frens la.

so leachy k!

anyway my frens rocks!

nothin to say already,

but i feel that things are really getting better.

GOOD NEWS!

2008-01-08T15:57:00.000+08:00

hello again!

i m so happy that my friends invited me to their group for group work.

i know it sounded so damn lame, but,

yeah, it is true!

and at first i tot they did not like me,

and was gossipping about me,

actually. it is other ppl.

mayb i m more sensitive,

but when i get sensitive, i m super sensitive!

oh yah,

denise had a stead and i m so happy for her.

sad,

i m in girl school.

but anyaway i also dun wan la.

i know that it is sure baby love

and will not last wan la.

so,

yeah!

bye!

1st day of chool in 2008!

2008-01-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

yayness!

it is the first day of school! and i m so damn happy!

but of course, i guess my mum was angry with me cause i was clumsy in school.

and missed the orientation and wasted her precious time... so quite sad also la.

but i was also happy that i was in the same class as jasmine and her friends was nice ppl leh!

i m so happy!

at least they talked to me.

they were good! thanks to zi ning and en ci! thanku so very much!

but the sad thing is that veno is not in the same class as me, so sad!

2007-12-28T15:37:00.000+08:00

i m going to criuse in around 2 hours.

and i m getting excited!

haha!

so i m not sure if u are able to contact me, but i will miss u guys!

CYA!

2007-12-25T10:29:00.000+08:00

ho! ho! ho!

merry merry christmas!

i wish everybody i love and everybody for loves me and

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

i pray that in the year to come,

everyone could fulfil their wishes,

and suceed in everything u do!

may santa bring us many many presents down our chimney.

and GOD bless us in the heaven!

so, once again, (if u dun find me naggy)

MERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2007-12-07T15:01:00.000+08:00

hello!

i changed my blogskin again! haha! nice? i quite like it! tag on my tagboard for comments, ur comments are much appreciated! they are important for me. amelia is gonna come back to singapore! yay! then i got ppl to talk to liao! yay! and those presents too! haha!

btw, who is hayden v, lola c and lolly c? i seriously do not know who are the ones that do my friend test. anyways, i gtg. bb!

2007-12-06T11:25:00.000+08:00

hello,

i have not been posting for a long time!

REASON: hooked on a chinese series drama. haha. it is a old wan some more. i have been watching it on youtube! it is fantastic lor. it is (the champion), it is the show when felicia chin and fiona xie run in bikini wan. i m not a sicko that only watch the part k. it is about the whole show. haha! i got that kind of superb feeling. now got nothing to watch then post the blog.

saturday---> had the bazar and some ppl came. it was fun overall. and is supper busy k! earn quite a lot. hehe... and veno thought she missed the top 100 thingy on the radio. but luckily it was an false alarm. haha... then after that when for dinner. the food suck like shit. but dont want to embarrass the owner, we say it is nice. (bad customer right?)

sunday---> my dad is busy with his work then he go back to office. then i slack at home then after that run around my condo 5 rounds, to shed some FATS! although did not lose much but felt refreshing after bath. NICE! haha.

monday---> amelia head for malaysia and will only come back on friday. so these few days super sian. no one to call. never mind, coming back soon liao! yay! but i hope she have fun. and she say that she gonna buy some stuff for me. yay!

tuesday---> nothin

wednesday---> went for eye checkup. my degree have not gone up for 3 years!

thursday---> TODAY! have chinese lesson later, then after that i gonna practice my piano. and mayb chat on the phone later, i m cut off from society for days! haha!

cya, haha.

2007-11-30T09:17:00.000+08:00

DEAD BLOG! DEAD BLOG!

PLS TAG PEOPLE! PLS!

HAHA! I M SO LAME!

ANYWAYS PLS RATE MY BLOGSKIN ON MY TABBOARD K?

PLS!

HAHA!

AND PLS DO MY FRIEND TEST!

DO BOTH!

HOPE TO C UR NAME ON THE LIST!

THANKS!

2007-11-29T10:15:00.000+08:00

hello!
i m gettin excited for the bazar.
so far 2 ppl are coming.
but veno might not.
but never mind.
just hope she will.
anyway. i m just bored!
so, i just post for fun.
nothin much to say.
oh ya!
i changed my blogskin.
and i did it all by myself this time round! (clever rite? jkjk)
actaully i n dumb,
i found out inly after a FEW months.
i highlight the FEW months.
for those blog experts, i thing they call my an idiot!
haha1
c, all the things i posted abt, are all crap, SIGH! i have got nothin to do! (i mean i have)
like assessment, getting ready for next yea.

so bb.

2007-11-25T12:25:00.000+08:00

it have been quite a not very long time since i post. haha! this post was posted very secretly. haha! i was actually doing some thinking of the set-up for the bazar comin up this saturday in my condo. yay! veno is comin to help me. and mayb amelia. if anyone of u wanna come, u can come too. just tell me before hand. k?

oh ya, before i forgets, i have something to post abt! i went back to school on friday. surprisingly, my mum allowed me! haha! so actualy i was late, because my mum say going there is not very important, so late also never mind! then i m pissed off! but at least she brought me there, hehe... then i helped amelia, veno, manju, sheng liang. and they signed my p.e. shirt. then, my mum suddenly called, she say need to go back, then they haven finished signing. so i asked veno to keep my shirt and pens. i gave out 'presents' too.(not really a present! but some souveiners, i meant wadeva la. idun noe how to describe it)

and ya, i m going to do kettleling(i hope i spelled correctly). it is like doing charity, u just got to ring the bell. and ask ppl to put the money in the kettle. if u pop by heeren, come and check it out k? haha! i will b going to smss soon. so i gtg. bb

2007-11-22T12:40:00.000+08:00

hello!! back from depression!(just jokkin). i tried to sleep. when i woke up, i felt better. haha! anyways, my blog is kindda dead. haha. i wanted to change blogskin, and i actually chosen liao. but cause i wanna let amelia c first then change. so i hope her dad can let her use the computer. SIGH! haha. yesterday i was helping my sis write their name on their textbook. and also pack their room. it is kindda tired! haha. but anyway it just help us to kill time. and my mum yesterday not at home, so we play computer and also watch tv for very long! (uh oh! giggles...). then i kindda miss my frens! haha. (not tellin who! haha. giggles) now my sis keep on watchin tv then, i have freedom! haha! but they also have to ask them to do homework.

actually i want to go back to kcpss to let my frens sign my shirt, but my mum would not allow. so i will just have to wait for class gathering. but nowadays, nobody call me(i mean a few, haha!) i can't feel that kind of friendliness u know? and that kind of urge to meet. so... not really waiting for it. or mayb it is because everyone is waiting for someone to call them. so everyone is waiting= no communications. haha! i m bored already! i shall go tagging on ppl blogs.

i came across this pic and i find it quite peaceful, so i put in this post.

c me on ur tagboards!

2007-11-21T10:39:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! i m back from my own wonderland! haha. but these few day, i have been thinking about some stuff. sometimes i wonder, have all these problems started with me? or is it because of the others. mayb it is because of the others but i think i have played a part in all the mess that happened in our clique. those stuff that happened had made a great impact on the ppl in our clique as well as ppl in other clique. i m not gonna blame anyone this moment, but i m really upset. y other ppl's clique does not have such problem, but onli we have? but it is ok i guess, cause i m leavin. i know not everyone in my clique hates me. so thanks to those peeps!

whenever i got problems, i found out that nobody had been really there to help me, except veno and sharmie(sometimes), amelia(sometimes). i cant relly on anyone. is teenage life suppose to b like that? or m i the onli one? i just find that some ppl sre just treating me unfairly, they way they talk to me is so impatiently. and they are so stuck-up! but nevermind, i m leaving anyway.

but i just dun feel good!

i m leaving so? ____

2007-11-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

hi everyone. today i went to my dad office in the afternoon. then because of some misunderstanding, my parents fought. sometimes i feel that my mum is a lil unreasonable but it is normal for a woman la. so it is a acceptable. i would not say much, since it is like washing dirty linen in public. i went to eat pizza wif my dad alone and i had a wonderful time wif him. i love my dad. but the pizza was so lousy. the bread base was so hard it was like biscuit. the pasta did not taste like one. so overall. fail!

then after that went to his another office. i just read my book. talk to his employee and then watch tv lor. after that at abt 8 we head back home and i chatted wif veno on msn. we talk through webcam. however there was some technical problem. she sounded like a squirrel. haha! so we stopped. then we played a game of reversi. i won! i m the champion! i m the champion! sorry veno abt that. haha...

this is my day.
kindda boring.
but i wanna thank amelia and veno for entertaining me by chatting wif me!
at least u all colour my life.
thanks.

2007-11-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

okay... just now, as i look through the gila girls post on their blog.
i m a lil sad. everyone is sad because veno is leaving. but no one is really sad because i m leaving.
i m jealous but i understand, but m i so worthless that my absence would not cause any pinch on ur skin? i m really doubting... u mean i have not done anything that u all would feel so empty without me. r u all my real frens? have anyone of u be my real frens? i m just ...

2007-11-12T13:09:00.000+08:00

yaah!
back from malaysia!
sunway lagoon is really fun sia!
first day had a tired time in the car
then after that we had dinner wif mt uncle
then later go shop.
i buy many many things.
2nd day.
we had an early breakfast and
went ice skating.
we played from 9 to 11.
it is like onli 6 singapore money lor!
cheap rite?
and wif some help from my fren minyi.
we managed to skate quite well.
and it was my first time i skate lor.
it was like roller blading.
then after that,
we went to
the sunway lagoon theme park.
me and minyi played the dry one.
then our sis played the wet one.
first we took the roller coaster.
the feeling when going downslope is damn scary.
i tot we almost died.
then because raining
omli got some r sheltered games
then we play lor.
although they are quite childish.
then me and maid played the slide.
actually have water wan la.
but we thought would not get wet mah.
then we go sit.
in the end my whole body is like wet lor.
after that we took the viking.
it overturn can?
then we actually did not know.
haha.
our parents were like so scared for us.
then after that no more liao.
we bath then go shop again.
then eat.
then after that go drink the welcome drink then go sleep.
then the next day
we go back singapore lor.
home sweet home!

2007-11-09T10:53:00.000+08:00

bb ppl.
i m going to malaysia KL sunway lagoon!
so... ya...
going today in the afternoon.
till sunday evening.
so u cannot reach me anyway.
so ya
bb!

2007-11-07T13:39:00.000+08:00

hi!
okie first.
sorry manju if u think that that post is too insulting.
cause i think those words were just wad u told me and i just noted it in my blog.
and second, i have transfered.
so bye bye peeps.
there were two reasons that i want to transfer.
the first is it is too far from my home.
the second is that...( i m not telling) <--- it is quite personal.
but i relly had many bad experience here.
to the gila girls,
u should noe much better than i do.
those fights were mainly started from me.
and u all think that i m rude and my attitude sucks.
then i my as well leave.
i m not here for u all to be treated like that.
but thanks for all those fights.
it made me stronger.
despite all those fights,
i still miss u all.
those times when u all care for me and help me are much appreciated.
so cya guys!

2007-11-02T18:35:00.000+08:00

i hate today!

first i went for the councillor debate thingy,
then i tried my best during the presentation.
i wanted the teachers to have a good impression abt me,
knowing the i had put in my effort during the programme.
although i m like kindda changing school,
i wanna be recognised by the teacher.
however i m not chosen.
but manju, who did not want to be chosen and
did her worst during the presentation,
got chosen.
life is unfair k!
i really feel like crying.
but i did not want to show it to my frens.
i thought i could leave the school wif great memories.
but in the end is like nothing at all.
in the end,
i m not recognised.

the second thing is that,
i went to st margaret for that interview.
actually yesterday, i went to consult my neighbour abt wad to say in the interview.
she told me some points and i could understand it.
but the problem, is that when i went for the interview,
she looked at my english marks and shook her head.
then i knew,
she was not satisfied.
she say:" urm... i think a c5 or c6 for english is really not eligible in this school. i had students like u who transfer, getting the same marks and failed desprately afterwards. u really gt buck up in ur english."
then i was like:"huh? like that arh?"
but later when she saw my EXCELLENT conduct, my outstanding performance in my cca, my
other results and of course my comments, she smiled.
i was alittle relieved.
she said that she might consider and tell me by the end of next week or earlier.
but before, i went, she said abt my english again!
so, i left her office sadly.

so those were my reasons, y i hate today and also a lil sad.

2007-11-01T17:14:00.000+08:00

yippie!
today i went to st Margaret to hand up the form to apply to transfer!
then just now,
i received a call from them.
they ask me to go for interview tommorrow!
i m like so damn happy la.
i thought i would not b short-listed!
cause my english so damn low.
but i was so happy.
i m now getting on my nerves.
i m thinking wad to say when i meet the principle.
i hope i will leave a good impression.
then able to transfer.
but kcpians,
it is not that i dun like u all.
is just that i hope that i can get a better study environment.
i love my friends.
especially,
: amelia, venotni, denise, manju, sharmala, dorin, jasmine
( not in any order)
signing off.

2007-10-30T11:34:00.000+08:00

in my jiu jiu house sia!
i went on saturday night then, we sleep there lor!
then the next morning i fight with my stupids sis!
she is so damn irritating! she scared i will tell my mum then beg me not to tell my mum lor.
so in the end i threatened her.
haha! i won liao lor! then we do the hallowen thing i say in the last post lor.
i m trying to upload the pic, but my com a lil siao wan!
so...
ya...
going home tomorrow liao.
i today need to chiong sia!
my homework haven finish!
haha! so later need to do, right after my lunch, so
cya!

2007-10-29T11:08:00.000+08:00

hi guys, it is the starting of the school holidays, and i m really getting bored.
how?
haha. btw, last friday was the last day of school and then i gave 4 groups of ppl sweets.
1st group-> the boys (just a mnm)
2nd group-> the posse (just a mnm too)
3rd group-> yong that clique (mnm and a kit kat)
4 th group-> gila ppl (mnm and kit kat and a letter)
the year did not end of as nice as we started school.
although, it was like that, i cant, blame anyone, it was like...(nvm, i should not mention anymore)

youy know jow i got my cursor and the tagboard?
it was my uncle lor.
he help me wan la.
thanks to him man!

yesterday, i had a hallowen party in my aunty house. it was like damn fun man.
i dressed up like a dracula and then,
we went 'patrolling' around the area and then after that we likie scare damn many ppl.
we play the "trick or treat". some ppl quite supportive la, they say that they will give. then the sweet talk ppl is the best man.
they gave us each an orea packet.
the rest are just normal sweet lor.
but some ppl hor, damn wad wan lor.
they say: go away la. u think i scared arh! go away. i feel like bashing them up man!
but it was not as fun as last year.
but... never mind la. still quite fun lor.

to the one truthians.
i hope u all guys wille njoy urself during the holidays and especially the gila ppl in my clique.
i hope we can meet up, in case i m really transfering. (giggle)
so cya guys, call me if u r bored, i will lend u my ears. haha.

oh well...

2007-10-24T16:36:00.000+08:00

hihi.
yesterday i did not post.
it was a sad day for me.

denise were fighting with amelia.
then after dat, just because she thinks that i and amelia were on extrem good terms then later will tell amelia wad denise told me.
which is not true la.
then later she say ac+a=bitch.
when u see that will u b angry? i m!

then later the way she treated me very coldly and critisize me.
then say i crazy.
when ppl critisize u, u would sure b angry and sad wan rite?
so there is no reason in why she say me siazabao.
do u expect ppl to critisize u and still very happy?
and in her blog she say she critisize me and amelia but never insult.
does it sound right to u?
critisize and insult is likr the same right?
so i was like so unhappy la.
i got ignored and rolled eyes at for nothing lor.
life is not fair?
m i that vulnerable to b scolded like that? no right?

but today we went to the east coast park.
then we kindda getting better in relationship.
she offered chocolates to me and we build paramid together too lor.

but from today's experience i found my true friends.
those that will stay by myside all the time are really my friends.
they will correct ur mistakes not by any vulgarities but with care.

i m said to say, there were onli few true friends.
mayb leaving this school is a good choice.
mayb i will b able to find my true friends.
i really had many bad experiences in this school.
i m not blaming anyone but,
a broken heart will never be able to b mended totally.
whereas those words used were really terrible.

school councillor?

2007-10-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

hi. actually i m stumbling whether to be a councillor in my school?(kcpss). but actually i hope to be la. but u know that i m like changing school. so it is kinnda difficult. once i change school, my cca pouints and all my cca good records will be gone!!! bur i have done my best in my npcc!! so , if i change, it would b a waste. seriously, really a waste. but, wad to do? this is the onli thing i can do!

let me tell u some stuff abt the councillor camp(18-19 october 2007), the first today was organised nythe high achiever blaah blaah... it was all lecture la, so kindda boring. then the 3rd day was going to sentosa. i went there and it was fun and mean time boring.

cause the first few games were by the high achievers blaah blaah... we plyed the sitting and so called the endurance game la. we had to sit on everyone's lap and ENDURE! in the end my group got 2nd because of my fault, all else group 8 would have gotten 1st. my legs were so painful the i was shivering damn badly and broke down.
then later we play the captain ball with uncooked chicken and it was so damn disgusting la!( i think?).

then later it is the ex-co programmes. we ate lunch first la obviously!

the food there is like so damn expensive la. then later we play the amazing race. it was finding for clues and we had to dig the sand. then our group cannot find the clue. all dig like shit and sweat like shit and my hands and legs were like aching the next day.

our group onli managed to cover a few places and if we had more time it would b more fum cause all the stations were evciting lor.

i love all the sec2 and sec3 councilors, cause they are like so damn good and kind la. i also saw a few couples too!!! haha!! like: b+hw and m+j and a+e and b+f and no more already! haha...

so far the whole thing was fun. the thing i am so fustrated about is wether to stay or to leave the school and continue b a councillor and my cca lor. i hope the time would just freeze and everything would be settled on its own. sigh, so God pls help me!!!

yay her!!!

2007-10-17T16:17:00.000+08:00

yay to amelia!!! cause, she help me change my blogskin. cause i dunno how to do dat. and i love it. oh yah it is time for the results.
english:51/100 :( (i was kindda sad abt it la. i cried lor)
maths:77/100 :/ (actually is 73 wan, but i fought for my marks, so quite happy)
chinese: still dunno
science:82/100:) (surprised to get such good results. haha.)
lit:86/100:) (surprised to get such results too. haha. 2nd in class too!!1)
goeg: 65/100 :/ (not very happy cause lowest among my clique)
history: 70/100 :) (surprised to score so well. 3rd in class. haha. but not as good as common test)
i m not acting smart. but hope the rest of my clique score well too!!! haha. cya.

okay...

2007-10-12T08:28:00.000+08:00

a daily of 20 words to do is nice? no la absolutely not! and then hor that is wad i got to do everyday! sian... and then have some irritating ppl like my sis is equally bad. i tortured her yesterday and she got into trouble. HAH!!! lmao man! and then my mum was the one that say after exam then no need do anything wan lor. just do wad i wan lor! like as if i m doin things i want. so i m really angry lor. last nite i had a dream. it was a good dream. i hope it will come true! HOW SWEET... hahaha! yupp so gtg. byes byes.

wadsoeva

2007-10-10T11:26:00.001+08:00

omg la. it is onli the second or third day of the so call holiday and i m some kindda bored liao. so i m so sad. but waddcha do? i wanna go ppl house. and i wanna ppl come my house too. i wanna change my blogskin too. but someone gt teach me u noe? haha so now i really gt go find some stuff to do haha... so cya guys.

2007-10-04T13:15:00.001+08:00

okay it is time to post. as u know today's date? ya! it is like 4th of the stinking october. so it is da stinking exam period. i got 4 papers down 3 to go. luckily all the hard hard wan gone. so left wif chinese geog and lit. but heard from my english teacher, she say i made terrible mistakes in the english paper and i m like wth! and it seriously affects my mood. waitin for my chinese tutuor to come. tomorrow have chinese mah. so i dunno wad is happening to me. in a day i will feel really really really sad and very very very happy and sad and happ. so m i sad or happy? i really dunno. i seriously dun understand myself. and frens can u all pls cheer me on? HAHA. but i need it. and pls i hope no no no to fights in our (gila ppl pls say it) GILA GROUP! dear God u really gt help me. so i think it is time to (u should know) revision lor. ABUDEN! hahas.

wow!!!

2007-09-21T16:29:00.000+08:00

okie. just now was like hang when i wanted to post. actually gonna post liao then the com got prob. so is like wth la. i m at themercedes showroom. this keyboard is like metal and so hard to type. then yesterday got home econs test. it was a success. but i got no more to bring back for my dearest mum. so kindda sad. and today veno cried. all because of some ppl call s******* J******** S******. she i so naughty. she made veno cry. but later everythin is solve. so back to normal. and i think i going soon. but before i go, i have somehing to tell. if u all r interested in being a charity job volunteer, i have a job for u after exams. the address is http://www.foodheart.org/.it is no money thing but it is good. my hands are painful liao so cya.

2007-09-18T18:20:00.000+08:00

okie. long time no c post liao. but i m like really so sad cause my this particular fren say that "anncher sux! avoid me and is a mother f****** bitch. i was like i never ignore her. and is just tt i never tok to her as much as that particular fren does. but i think thosre words were like a little harsh for me. i tried quite a lot to make the 8 of us be toghther. but sometimes is just tt i m closer to some ppl then this particular ppl. i know if this particular fren sees i know tt she will b thinking tt i m wrong but still blame her. but i have just one thing to say to her is tt i m sorry for not constantly partnering u but those word r really too harsh. you hurt me. i m just sorry. making all 8 happy is really difficult.

i m an idiot

2007-09-09T14:46:00.001+08:00

i m an idiot man.

i did not even know tt i was slacking all these while and i still tot tt i was really hardworking.

and i really need to work hard cause i m taking another psle in tt sense.

cause my parents wanna me to go other school. it is a MUST. so if i get lousy results i go lousy school. if i get good results i go good school! DUH! so is like a psle re test. and i gotta sacrifice many many stuff. like tv slacking and going to my grandma house and shopping.

but i m telling myself tt i have to for my sake. so my dearest frens in kcp. u have a mission!

IF U CAIGHT ME SLACKING AND NOT PAYING ATTENTION, U HAVE THE RIGHT TO SCOLD ME! U HAVE THE RIGHT! BUT I HOPE I WILL PAY ATTENTION. im kindda stress now. i had my study plans and i hope i will causionsely follow it. i failed to b as a daughter today. because of me, i made my parents quarrel and because of me, i made my mum cry. and because of me, i made my dad give up on me. and because of me, i cried and felt useless. so i think i got a lot more to buck up on. and i think this will my last post before my EOY. i really need to do my best. so frens remember ur mission and i pray tt i will have discipline. cya guys.

yesterday,today,tomorrow

2007-09-08T10:11:00.001+08:00

yesterday never post. cause was like spring cleaning my room.

so sad la. some precious stuff have to throw away.

and yesterday, denise came back from auzzies.

and she say she have a present for me.

and she had to rush through her homework.

she have not done any yet.

haha!!!

and yesterday, i am forced to hear "beautiful" songs from my mum.

but now forget liao.

she i think also forget liao.

and sharmie veri good lor.

holiday got work to do and can earn maoney sia.

me?? nothin!

nvm, i m who i m.

and rite!

yesterday i edited some of my profile and tag, then all become gone.

so i need my dear fren help again.

so not independent sia.

and i feel tt EOY is like coming soon.

so i m bucking up.

no more SLACKING.

I REPEAT.

HAHA...

2007-09-06T17:50:00.000+08:00

yo everyone.
my font shrink after changing blogskin.
by my dearest AMELIA
so now my font will have to be bigger.
so become very big.
and i just came home from my dad office after prayers.
and my house smells reek of paint.
having some breathing problem.
and! and! i m waiting for denise prezzies.
i think she must have touched down from the airplane.
oh ya,
i did some homework and so i think i did my part.
back in school in 3 more days.
so cya frenzzies.

i have read ur blog

2007-09-05T17:47:00.000+08:00

thanks mayb.
at least u read my post and tt u will grant mi wish.
but why do u still block me?
it is kinnda misleading.
and today is really boring.
tt is why i post again.
sigh. i hope the 8 of us will be frens again.
and i m bitting my nails again.
I PROMISE I SHALL NOT DO TT AGAIN.

some misunderstanding

2007-09-05T10:26:00.000+08:00

i think there r some misunderstandingin the maad girls disease group.

a certain somebody, loves to call us idiots and just love to take retribution.

somehow, d***** tot that d**** was involved too. then made d**** veri angry.

so...

i m not blaming anyone. cause i think that everyone will b at fault.

and i send a teacher day email to all teachers that taught me and onli gotten 3 out of 10( i think).

but nevermind, cause all the teachers tt i expect for them to reply. replied.

so HAPPY!

so actually i hope tt the misunderstanding will be cleared and everything will be back to normal.

M**** pls grant me my wish.

bored sia...

2007-09-04T17:51:00.000+08:00

my mum just came home and i have coame back from my grandma house. so cannot slack but also good abt that cause i can finally do real work.
cause my mum can control us mah.
but another disadvantage is that she wants us to do a lot of household chores and today suddenly shout like shit. make me cry.
i dunno why,
i tend to cry veri easily.
haha.
i think crybaby la.
haha.
i going out for dinner after this post.
mum shouting again.
so gtg.
bb

grandma house

2007-09-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

i m at mi grand ma house rite now, using my uncle laptop.
watching SIMPSONS.
haha.
quite funny but some part quite lame la.
spider pig, spider pig!!!
haha.
now tt i have my grandma with me,
no more sisters problem liao.
haha.
tomorrow my mum coming to pick me up at 9.
so plenty of time for freedom sia.
playing with my baby cousin aka elonzo.
so fun and i love him.
haha!!!
3 more hours to sleeping time.
so watching more PIRATED movies,
haha!!!
gtg...

quite normal

2007-09-02T11:16:00.000+08:00

just a few fights but not too big la
yesterday cooked my home econs stuff.
it was delicious man!
i love it.
it is called "potatoes balls"!
everything in it becomes balance meal lor.
so dun criticZ the name k?
aniway is my blog.
i m quite obsessed with it.
and rite,
there will be tagboard soon,
so just be patient abt it.
but wait,
i doubt anione know abt my blog!!
haha.
i think i gotta do some advertising.
lucki denise lor.
can go australia.
i aniwhere also cannot go.
home is so boring sia.
but later going my grandma house so not to bad lor.
anione bored just give me a call!
BORED!
and i hope that there will be prezzies from denise and my oversea mum.
i still have to rush to do my dad work.
never do later no prezzies.
DIAO!
i want to do my homework cause i say i wanna do in all the previous post are
all blank talks man!
SIGH!
oh yah,
i wont be able to post tomorrow cause in my grandma house.
sigh!
so i seriously gtg.
haha...

2007-09-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

i wasted my day again
on scolding my sis on attitude problems.
feel so useless and i just want my sis
to back off man!!!
bloody ppl.
for no reason want to come and talk crap!
then ask super unreasonable question lor.
btw, HAPPY TEACHERS DAY TO ALL TEACHERS!!!
3 CHEERS AND 3 CHEERS FOR ALL TEACHERS
HIP HURRAY,
HIP HURRAY,
HIP HURRAY!!!
YAY!!!
cya

sisters=irritationers

2007-09-01T09:04:00.000+08:00

hate my sis man!
yesterday night, my mum informed me,
to ask my sis put on the blanket cause we on the aircon,
and doesnt, wnt any one to get cold.
the my riitating sis dun wan lor.
then i tried to say a few times, still cannot work.
then i so pissed off,
shouted at her and she still dun wan.
then at that time. i felt so useless and empty,
i burst into tears.
she still stubbon, still dun wan listen.
then , i dun care liao,
marched out of the room and cry even more.
she see my so sad then go and put on blanket.
then, still give me the attitude face lor.
i decided not to sleep wif them, so i sleep in my own room.
then, everyone got influence and go back tp their own room.
onli my third sis is the take advantage type, still sleep in the aircon room.
conclusion: sisters are irritationers
but wad to do?
i am the so call "mother" of the house.
so i m not gonna care them liao.
i need to seriously do my work liao.
no more time for irritationers!
i think my mum still can control them well.
i am still far away from her.
haha!!
so i hope my mum can come back faster.
dun noe today wad things is gonna happen liao.
will post again.
MAYB...

sis??? wad r they for?

2007-08-31T20:24:00.000+08:00

sisters are too sucky sometimes sia!!!
they r so unreasonable, problematic and LAZY!!!
i just dun know why sis r for lor.
i dun wan them to be here on earth sia.
gtg, bb

maybe things will get better

2007-08-31T14:15:00.000+08:00

hai ya, i think things r getting better somehow!
cause ppl start treating me better and i can mix around better with ppl too!!!
and i love my frens and the way they treat me.
mayb the first post was really rubbish,
DIAO!!
HAHA!!!
aniways, today was the first day of the school holidays.
we had a celebration in the morning in the hall and marican homeroom and bishan park.
RATING: 3/5
soory to say that is gonna b so low cause, it is kindda boring.
actually not really in good mood cause my parents went to macau.
i tot it would be freedom,
however,
it is like no parents love.
it is kindda diaO but i tend to b a little bit lame here and there.
so now posting at home with stupid sis.
HAHA!!!
it is time i can scold them liao.
MUAHAHA!!!
still got school homework to do and rush up for EOY.
gave pr3esents to teachers i love.
excluding: fat ass and asshole
DUH!!!
they r like so them no teacher talent lor.
so mayb i should end my post hereand study accordingly to my timetable!!
i dun think this september holiday will be good lor.
dun know why, have an instinct.
HAHA...
still have home econs project lor.
HOMEWORK, HERE I COME...
so i will stop here.
cya

mie first official post!!!

2007-08-30T16:07:00.000+08:00

haha!!! my first post was teached by amelia and denise aka my 2 best fren!!!
not like SOME ppl lor!!!
it is so sucky men!!!
she think she rox but is like real lor!!!
hi ya,
dun care so much abt such ppl lar!!!
OMG
my results are not to bad.
but,
deprove 1%!!!
dun know my mum will scold or not!!!
SIGH!!!
quite troubled this few days.
this september holiday,
i goonna study like hell liao...
JIA YOUS!!! TO MY BEST FRENS!!!
AND WISHING VENO A GOOD HEALTH...
and sharmie, dorin, jasmine, veno U ALLO R MY BEST FRENS TOO!!!

u brighten up my day man!!!

2007-08-30T15:39:00.001+08:00

testing 123

2007-08-30T15:39:00.000+08:00

TEST TEST TEST.

anncher here for testing.