19 August 2008
it had been such a long time since i had posted. i had even forgotten how to post. but this few months had been a tiring and tedious one. many things had happenened and some were really good, some were just freaking bad. jus in this month, i failed two common test, both are on the language section. is it depressing? it was the first time i failed that subject. it hurts my heart a lot u know? and for the another test, i expected a least a pass, but i failed.. that feeling was so unbearable that i just broke down. i really didint expect anything stated above to happen. then today, there is this maths common test, i practically just screwed the whole papaer up. now there wasnt any motivation left for me to study harder. i kept on asking myself if i was really slacking and was i really being too complacent. there was no answers. i really think i slack a lot alot this semester. i m so scared. i m some one so easily influenced. my parents were atarting to see this change in me, there were holding me on more tighter than ever. they would not want to let it go. they are afraid i would br led astray. even i myself suspect my own strong beliefs and character. i dont know. i feel so emotional. i feel like it is the end of the world. but i really dun want this kind of feeling. does anyone knows how am i feeling. om gosh, i feel so much better after typing. but i would really hope some one is really there to support me when i m really frail and weak. i want to do it. i want to excel, but everythingseems to be going down hill. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! it was not planned like that.
depressed...
emoing...
h ur t -
8:28 PM
